If the sun won't shine...

So. I've come to the conclusion that my uncle is really pathetic. And quite frankly... I'm VERY sick and tired of this. Sure he's and elder and he's not exactly mentally alright... HOWEVER (before you judge me and think I'm a horrid being)... Uncle is FULLY capable of doing things.

Meaning(in example form:
1) When he is hungry... he can get food on his own.
2) He doesn't HAVE to sit all day and be BORED to death. He can do stuff... like clean. ESPECIALLY clean the messes that he makes.
3) I'm sorry... in this household, if you finish something and it's empty (like a cookie box)... you chuck it in the the trash can! You don't just leave it in the kitchen... that's obnoxious.
4) Also... if someone is letting you stay in their house FOR FREE(!!!)... don't you DARE insult that person. Ever!
5) You should have common courtesy manners. Like... oh, I don't know... if you're technically living there... help set the table.
6) Don't you EVEN THINK about saying my father treats you like a SLAVE... and then tell everyone that he does. Because in reality, my father is genuinely a hard worker. And he won't ask for help unless he needs it. You are lucky he only asked you ONCE to help. ONCE. And not more.

There are more examples... but those are the ones that REALLY bother me.
He does have the mentality to do things. He's not a newborn. And he's not old.
I'm sorry... he receives no sympathy from me because I really think he's not "crippled" in the sense that he think he is.
He needs to GROW UP for ONCE in his life.

If I walked in the desert that was 1000 miles long...

So... I got my grades for this past semester. I did really good/not too bad for half of my classes... and I know I did bad in two... one of which I'm fixing over the summer. And I'm adding another course onto it. And then the other class... I DEFINITELY didn't too hot on and HAVE to retake it somehow. Ugh. EFF my life. Eff my life to the bottom of the ocean... into the center of the Earth... and let it explode in whatever that is in there.
Seriously though. Eff my life.

What's wrong with me?
I try so hard... and it's not getting me anywhere.
I'm going NO WHERE. =[

If I followed the breadcrumbs...

So... I know last post I said I would update more... however, I've been trying to keep up with life itself. I don't even know where to begin.
I suppose I'll start off with saying it's summer break. I start summer classes the 26th, blehhh. However, it needs to get done. -_- Lots of things need to get done.

I don't know... I feel like I can't keep up anymore. Like I'm too tired to continue... however, I know I must fight on... no matter how tired I am. And it's not like I'm actually tired because I hardly am. I stay up... panicking, thinking, etc. I can't stop. I become bothered in unnecessary excessive amounts. I want a grip again.

There's something missing in my life.
I don't know what it is.
And I miss it.
... How can I possibly miss something that I don't even know?