If I hold you here and close to my heart...

I am definitely not feeling fierce. And I might just collapse this week because it's so difficult.

If I sobbed my eyes out...

I'm in a sea of people and I have never felt more alone. And I'm drowning in my sea of people. I feel trapped. I don't know how to get out. I am heading for a breakdown and I can't stop myself. I have tearstained cheeks. Who's to blame? No one. What's to blame? Nothing. THen why? I haven't got a clue. And more importantly, I don't have an answer. What's wrong with me?

If forgetting is to be forgetful, then I don't want to forget anything...

Today... was rather unproductive. However, I'm not caring.

I don't understand.

And also... I'm forgetting. I'm forgetting my memories.

And I don't want to. I really don't.
But I can't stop it.

Come back memories... come back.

If there was another time...

I'm sleepy in the daylight, but I get so sad and awake during late hours. Like now.

What's wrong?
Am I okay?
Will I ever be?
What could possibly be wrong?

I feel like I can't breathe. I feel like I'm in a crowd and no one can hear my whispers and weeps.

If I knew you from before...

Pretty.
That's what I want to hear.
Just once.
For real.

I miss that.

If the howling wind does not whistle...

Currently... I'm in the Student Union.
What am I doing? Possibly not a whole lot except I am updating the much-delayed journal.
It's been so long since I last posted and typing on a real keyboard feels absolutely bonkers. I've been on my laptop for far too long and I miss hearing the noise of typing on a keyboard. Haha. It's weird because I thought I would never miss this feeling.
At any rate. College.
It's going great.
I really truly like it here.
I've met the coolest people here.
I talk to most of the EM-ers frequently. Except for a few.
Also... I have reconnected with people since college. Again. Bonkers.

Right now... at this very moment. The new issue of Generation is out and a lot of people are reading it. Good stuff I have to say. I shall pick up a copy before Bio lecture. Which I should go to soon... but I will not. At least... not quite yet.

I am quite tired today. It's been very busy and quite chilly I have to say.
Well... right now I am looking up the counseling services for the school. It's for a group project. I'm paired with this girl named Kerry. She was wine and I was cheese. Yay? I think.

Un centoventi? In Richmond? Probably.

If I could correct the wrong...

Attention world... HE is going to school with me.

I don't go to school with him.