If I find someone who can hold my breath until smoke clears away...

Dear self,
What are you doing? Not terribly sure, are you?
You are talking to a guy who is overseas and starting to like him more than you really should? Why?
Not so much as a why are you talking to him... it's a "why are you starting to like him more than you should"-why.
You know it can never happen, right? Unfortunately.
Why is it that you find a guy you really like, it can't work out?
And why did your best friend from school make you feel all crappy and bad feeling liked? Especially when he has an inkling of how you feel about things in general.

Signed,
Slightly Sad Self.



Dear Slightly Sad Self,
I'm sorry I make you go through this.

Signed,
Self

If I just learn to deal...

Good day lost blogger.

It's been over two months since I last wrote here.
I went through my summer... worked, went on vacation (Cancun), and got a guy fired from work for stalking. Awesome.

Now school's in session.

My never-ending whirlpool of "what am I doing here?" goes on and on and on.
I mean, I know what I am doing here... but mentally I'm not all here? I feel like I'm missing something. I feel a little lost.
And it's strange because I have temporary moments where I feel like I'm not. Mostly it's talking to certain people. However... why do I feel like this most of the time?

Maria Mena wrote a song called "Patience".
Listen to it. Read the lyrics.
It's helping me today.